Keep looking forward

Keep looking forward

You’re packed you’re all set for the road
What’s left at home is an empty room
You know it’s not so easy but no one ever said it was
You tried so hard to make up your mind
Now all that’s left is by your design
You say it’s not so easy but that’s just what life’s all about

You’ve made up your mind
But you’re still unsure
Is this what you want?

Your friends, your life, now in photographs
You take a breath and you close your eyes
You know it’s not so easy but no one ever said it was
Don’t wait, hesitate, or doubt yourself
You’re in this now so give it all you’ve got
You say it’s not so easy but that’s just what life’s all about

Don’t be so sad when
You’re saying long goodbyes
Don’t think it’s over
Before you even try
It’s the start of
The start of a new life
Keep looking forward
Don’t be so sad when
You’re saying long goodbyes
Don’t think it’s over
Before you even try
It’s the start of
The start of a new life
Because it’s not the end

Dedicated to my Phuket May 2012 CTESOL classmates. I wrote this song while in my room in Phuket and managed to finish it the very night before I left Thailand. Pretty self explanatory lyrics. It’s still a demo, and I recorded this a few hours after leaving the hospital, but whatever. Raw music kicks ass. Enjoy! <3

My chat with flirtyaryanna98

So today I received a message from a spam bot on Google Chat, and since I had nothing better to do, I decided to entertain myself by responding to it with “lol” every single time. Here’s the chat log:

flirtyaryanna98: hey cutie
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: whats up, I dont remember when I found your username..im 24yrs old, female…you?
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: im not desperate hehe i just enjoy talking to ppl online especially via webcam, do you webcam?
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: ahhh ok are you signed up to any dating sites? i wanted to join adult friend finder but they charge too much!
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: i see..where do you live? i am bored at home…and this usually leads to bad things anytime i take a break from school work i jump online
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: well…i am a true “autagonistophiliac” which means I have a fetish for being on camera you can google it if you dont believe me! lol, have you ever used SplitCam?
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: its a gtalk adult site that allows us to chat, and even go live like skype, its been up for a while..they give you a unique page, my link is http://www.splitcamcrush.com/Jennygirlie
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: if you go there my video will load, is it displaying for you on the right side?
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: yea you just click the “Accept Invite” button on the bottom left and it’ll connect us..if your camera shy you dont have to show yourself, I’M the one with the fetish remember LOL
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: well im always either on the phone or online, im a chat addict lol…i dont normally give my number out but if you meet me in the chat and I get comfortable with you we can talk on the phone
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: my number is 206-222-1648…my phone is dead, so give it a few minutes to charge, and please dont go give that out! hehe…come talk to me over on the chat site
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: its free, they ask for info for age verification…im sure i’ll keep you entertained though
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: i love the site cause its streams fast in real-time sorta like a skype, fill out your info, its only for age verification k?
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: i use this site to play on cause i don’t want to be recorded, just watched!…this site doesn’t allow people to record my cam just click the “Accept Invite” button on the left of the page and we’ll be able to have a live chat
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: credit card is just to verify your age, it’s free thru my cam session invite since I’m a premium member
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: yup, then once your logged in my video will appear again right in front of you, and you can join me for some private time
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: I should be somewhere on the top row, you should see my pic
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: k
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: are u in babe??
me: lol
flirtyaryanna98: k
me: lol

Needless to say, she never got my credit card details.

Never meant to hold your head under the water, my love

It’s now week 3 of my 4-week long TEFL course in Phuket, and I gotta say – the past 2 weeks have been a blast. This week is going to be hell – tons of assignments, classes to teach, notes to revise, and the dreaded mock exams. Our finals will be next Monday, I’ll probably need to pick up some Adderall this weekend to survive. Just kidding.
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