Crossroads

So what’s been going on in my life?
Besides the usual daily grind of working life, the weekend jam sessions, and hanging out with my buddies: not much really.

It’s at a point where I think I’m too comfortable with where I am. I’m not unhappy, don’t get me wrong, and I’m definitely content. But is this what I want? Life could be so much more than what it is right now. But then again, am I too idealistic?

I have a lot of responsibilities right now, and I constantly use them as an excuse to tie me down to what I’m doing right now. Is that being too selfless? Should I just do what I feel or want to do, and go ahead?

Most of you who know me will know that I just want to roam the world, picking up odd jobs every few months, save up enough, move on to the next country and so on. I just want to experience as many different things in life before I die (I wonder when that will be?) just so I can say I did something. I didn’t waste my life away wishing I did something when I could.

Or is what I’m thinking about doing a stupid idea? Should I just forget it and live a “normal” life, one that everybody leads. I don’t know. I really don’t know.

When people talk about crossroads in life, and how hard it is to decide which way to go: I guess I might be facing one now. It’s just that I don’t know how long the path will stay open.

It’s been awhile since I’ve felt this lost.